reality.

i think i'm fatigued.

I hung out with max, matt and helena today. First max and matt picked me up at about 1. We went to go to marina's to give chenchen her drink. Then we went to Albertson's to get roses for helena. After that we dropped by Taco Bell coz I was hungry. Matt's mom called and wanted some coffee from Baskin Robbin's. So we had to drive there and then afterwards drop the coffee off at the City Hall. We pick up Helena around 2ish. We went and hopped the fence at Glennbrook, the place where bf and me first met. Chicken Fights. Horny lil Boys. Sitting in the hot tub. Changin in public. Haha.

Afterwards, we find out xtine's house was free of parents for about an hour. So we take the opportunity. Massive orgies. Haha.

The day was fun. But I wish bf was here to enjoy it too. :[ No beach for me today. :[

I cannot find my fuckin ipod. Its makin me mad because I need it for my trip. Ugh.

I'm exhausted. Thank god tomorrow is rest day for me. I'm so sad. :[ Still havn't talked to bf. Missin him badly.

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2 more days

of sunny california. I'm gettin really really sad. havn't talked to bf all day. I'm about to go hang out with matt and max and do god knows what. We're thinking of going swimming since I can't go to the beach coz beyayatch can't go.

I just finished destroying my room. Well the floor is covered in clothes. And I really don't feel like cleaning it up. I discovered today that I can't find 2 of my favorite shirts. Ugh. I have no idea where they are. Maybe sleepovers and changing in other people's houses is a bad idea since you leave your clothes there. Then you forget about it after a while. Or i should just be responsible and remember to take my clothes afterwards. Oh well.

I'm in dire desire of starbucks right now. Hopefully matt and max are too. :]

So I got 40 dollars today. My parents said that I have only 2 more days so I might as well spend it on friends and stuff. Yay! I'm pretty excited.

Tomorrow stuck home all day. Why? Hm. Actually I can go to my goodbye dinner party at BJ's. Yes! Food. Pasta. Thats about all I eat. Pasta and lemonade. oh and starbucks.

I miss boyfriend dearly.

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Burp.

ugh. having problems burping. for reals. its pissin me off.

today. i went swimming with bf. We stayed in the water until we were human prunes. We had a lotta fun playin in the water. Tryin out new things like sharing oxygen. Its kinda hard. Haha. Kissin under water is harder than it seems. Movies make it so easy. Haha.

After that, cheetos, burritos, and pepsi was our company. Eatin until we got full. Hmm. Then max and matt came, coz matt finally got his car back. We were all going to go to big5. But somebody wasn't in the mood to. So postponed that.

Bf left today to go to his cousins in Concord. It was sad saying goodbye to somebody knowing that you're not gonna see that person for a long time. You won't be able to hug them, kiss them, feel their arms around you. But everything will all work out for the best. Hopefully.

Starbucks and Stix with mom today. Pretty fun getting to spend time with her again. Anxious about georgia, and what they're gonna say about me. Knowing that they haven't seen me for about 2 years. Wow.

Beach hopefully. Tomorrow. Sad bf won't be able to go with us. I think I should be called negra now. Since I'm so dark. Tomorrow I will be darker, since laying down under the sun is what I will mostly be doing.

Oh I burped. Finally. Haha.

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cez

Click

Found this in my old posts.

If there was a rewind, pause, or fast forward button in life.. What would you do?? Would you even know what to do, where to pause, where to rewind, where to fast forward?? And when to play??

If life was like that, there will be no ending and no beginning.. There will be no past, future or present. It will always be the times we like best, the times that we wish we were right now. Life is like that, to teach as lessons. Teach us how to be strong, and what to value.

Value every moment of your life, coz you never know when it's going to end.. There's no time for regretting nor sadness.. Life's too short to waste it on foolish nonsense.. Use your time wisely and everything will go by quickly, it's like a fast-forward button, except you don't notice that it's your own actions that's doing the fast-forwarding.

Sleepover Nights

They make me smile. I just got home from sleeping over.  The only thing I hate about it is walking back home. When you're so sleepy coz you stayed up late the night before. Last night, there were a couple of tears. A lotta kisses and hugs. A lotta laughing. Ehem. Hitting your head on the bed. Ehem. Shadow dancing. Haha. Of course nobody's gonna get it.

I didn't like waiting for an hour just so I can sneak into the house. But it was all worth it. Our last sleepover for a very very long time.

The situation I'm in regarding bf really makes me sad. I have no clue what's gonna happen in the future. I don't know how much trouble he's getting into. All I know is that whatever happens, I will stay with him, and love him, and support him, and be there for him through whatever he goes through.

Oh by the way. Welcome back! to my lesbian lover lulu, and my beyayayatch helena. They both went on vacation for a couple of weeks. Now they're back and bangin. duh?

So my agenda for today.

[] refinish packin
[] call pplssss
[] sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep
[] cook lasagna
[] finish watching season 1 of friends
[] hang out with bf

Not bad. It'll be a very sad day today. Bf leaves today, 2 days before I leave for Georgia. Today will be the last day I see him. Until school starts at least.

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I'm sleepy,
ceeeeeeezzz